subject:skip hop jump
feeling: optimistic

hello, been a bit... i have been forgetting to write down my dreams lately, which is irritqting because i telll myself to write them down then fall right back asleep (_　_)。゜zｚＺ ive stopped my slacking off on my work out routine today , and i hope to keep it up at least until the spring .. im also trying to learn more vocaloid dances , as well as dances in general, as an addition to my routine ^_^^ i really need to quit my saying im going to do something then not doing it as well. its been making me really discouraged ,hhahaaaaaa. just to complain a little more: i feel ive been becoming too hateful lately , as well as obnoxious and whiny, and it makes me feel bad for my friends since theyre the ones who have to deal with it ;;;; i want to try and improve my behaviour since , well, it is probably Unpleasant, but i dont want to suddenly seem too closed off or something .. ill find a balance eventually, i hope.

06:19 pm

subject:か が
feeling:giggly

ive been very infatuated with len kagamine lately ... unsure Why Exactly but im not at all bothered by it other than the fact he is all i can draw ............... also, i think i will start going on walks when i have time. theres a trail right up the street from my house that takes a decent amount of time to walk through, so, (*￣∇￣*) i need to get out of the house more anyways... before the Yellow consumes me.

02:42 pm

subject:shower spouts
feeling:numb

sitting on the floor in n the shower and despairing about my failures is so fun I have been here for an hour. i should get out soon(~Q~;)I think a piece of my nailpolish got in my nose .i wish i wasnt averse to acrylic / press on nails because theyre cute + would probably stop me from biting my nails. not actually ive tried it before and ripped the nsils off both times but a girl can dream . they are cute though. i want nazuna / shnz themed nails

05:11 pm

subject:da orb
feeling: hopeful

i plan to Actually watch arcane s2 soon.. maybe tonight.. im only doing this for jayvik and vijinx, if im being honest, even though im aware of the jinx cucking that occurs (・_,・) im also going to rewatch s1 because i miss silco. ive avoided s2 for this long despite having watched s1 back then and having liked it because i tend to not take interest in fotm things due to their often obnoxious fandoms / new fans (large example is mouthwashing... i really dont know how they managed to make it go to shit That Fast..) or just genuine disinterest. either that or i wait until the initial hype has calmed down (which is what i did with s1 , if im recalling correctly) . the latter isnt for any particular reason really other than me eventually being like "hm i might as well give this thing a chance" but it doesnt really apply to a lot of fotm things that often , hahaaaaa... sometimes i feel like i sound like one of those contrarians who just shit on popular things because theyre popular, but thats really not the case so i dont know why i feel lumped in with those types ( ´・∀・｀)

10:50 pm

subject:necro eater
feeling: good

this song is really nice. a lot / majority of new vocaloid stuff nowadays is really samey and song is guilty of this samey style If You Squint despite being from a couple years ago. nevertheless, the mv is super cute and reminds me of valkryie To A Degree just based on sound. i havent listened to many gakupo songs in my time as a vocaloid fan ( the kagamines , fukase and vflower have me in a chokehold ...) , but i might listen to more just because of this one..[...]

06:25 pm

subject:weeping
feeling: productive...?

i was no.1 procrastination BOSS today, but i also worked a bit on my web site so, at least i accomplished Something... I really need to start learning kanji nd basic vocab to morrow though because i did not do it today due to aforementioned site building ;;;;;; im stopping for tonight since i need to finish a few assignments..

08:30 pm

subject:to the day
feeling: mellow

[...] i worked on my site , read , and studied jp . i didnt get as much as i wanted done because of An Appearance (my family came over and my mother was asking me to do things for her.) i need to stop trying to sound so formal on this blog, especially while wording my dream entries, but the only thing im really doing is not being As obnoxious in my humor (?? unsure how to word this as a lot of my humor is comprised of inside jokes so i guess just not including that in my entries . even then though i dont. usually try to be humorous in my physical journal either) and fixing more of my spelling errors? which I guess is. not That much of a tryhard thing.? i still use my typing quirk that i Swear is not a typing quirk, but yk (゜▽゜) anyways, i have to start on my kanji notes today yes yes . japanese is hard because i have bad handwriting already and it makes me become A Tweaker whenever my characters dont look right. and this is only for the kana. someone save my fucking soul when i start practicing writing kanji 〒▽〒 also, i worked out after a whole month of putting it off, so im happy about that, despite not doing my whole routine due to the aforementioned Appearance.

01:33am