subject:visible
feeling: agitated
too often i get the urge to delete the entirety of my online presence , at leastin regards to my art, because of the lack of enjoyment i get from the attention and my own distaste for my digital works . the only reason i dont is because of the slight chance i ever end up trying to gain a following or commissioners again. but this is unlikely. i guess the only other reason for keeping myold account (insta) up is that I don't have access to a lot of theimages on there anymore ;;;;;;; and i oft feel deep nostalgia for my shitty older art. maybe ill find a way torecover alot of it one day. idk. i need to add an art section to my site soon..... i think itll still make me anxious because my art is mediocre but itll be a more cohesive archive. nobody is checking it out anyways so (∪.∪ )...zzz i need to work on my oc stories to the point where they are presentable as well.
05:31 pm
subject:ciao
feeling:hungry
currently, i am designing a boy who does animegao cosplay, and it reminded me of a mutual i used to have when i first found out about animegao and would post pictures i found to my account. every time id post it, they'd say something like "haha knowing this is a fetish is so funny hahahahaha" as if i cared. it was really repetitive and got on my nerves. i dont remember if i ever told them off for it . they used to larp as a crossdressing cis man even though it was very obvious from their face reveal that they were Not. kind of humorous. they were really obnoxious about explicit topics as well and i think i blocked them when they started fujoposting yet engaging in shipcourse........... ahh... anyways, meganes with shaved heads or very Very short hair are super moe, i think. though i usually only like buzzed hair on women ( ・_ゝ・)
09: 57 pm